Tough week.

Assalamualaikum

Its been a long time ago since I experience the same thing now. 2-3 semesters back if I'm not mistaken. Being in this kind of situation is not easy. But sometimes I miss it. Wonder why.

It comes again. Same things. Too many unsolved problems, too little time with exam is coming soon.2 days ago I lost my bag ( actually syakir's Nike bag) at Citta mall. My wallet, nexus 7 ( I love this gadget so freaking much ), matrix card, few medical books are the things inside it. Stress level 50%.

Back to sg buloh, realised I lost my logbook too. While the submission date in 3days, im completely freak out. Impossible to fill it back within this short period. So my plan now just send the empty new logbook with official latter of excuse n police report inside as the proof. Bad decision but at least im not cheating. Well somebody suggest me to cheat lecturers' signature.

Thanks you so much Dr Nadia :)

Now im in so called study week. Not sure if it is true, but im trying to put myself in this mood. Have few bedside teachings left, but i think its better for me to just stay in room n do some last minute revison. (note: writing this during my rest hour hahahaha). Im completely forget what the hell i learned during anaesthesiology posting. Need to catch it back immediately. But u know what, all my anaesth n surgical notes also inside that freaking bagpack. Stress level 99%. Ahh whatever, leave me alone n let me deal this with sobr n solah.

And again, Being in this kind of situation is not easy. But sometimes I miss it. Wonder why.

I guess it is call from God

حَسْبُنَا اللهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيْلُ نِعْمَ الْمَوْلَى وَنِعْمَ النَّصِيْرُ

وَلَاحَوْلَ وَلَا قُوَّةَ إِلَّا بِاللهِ الْعَلِيِّ الْعَظِيْمِ

Kamil

1)Please pray for me for this coming OSCE

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Itu ini

Semakin kau jejak usia, semakin kuat kau mengenal dunia. Semakin matang selusuri ragam hidup, untuk kau jelajah di dunia yang kau peluk.

Dan kau pula semakin hebat mencuba itu ini. Itu ini yang satu tika dulu kau anggap hanya pelengkap satu kitaran hidup atau memenuhi lumrah sang manusia. Dan kini itu ini  kau pula yang rasa.

Itu ini datangnya dari hati. Kau tak pasti tapi sentiasa selubungi. Terkadang kau abaikan, namun ianya hanya makin kuat. Terkadang kau kejarkan, namun ianya hanya makin sekat.

Kau tahu siapa diri kau. Kau tahu siapa diri nya. Kau tahu apa yang sama, kau tahu apa yang berbeza. Tapi kau tak penah tahu apa makna Itu ini dalam diri kau, dan kau juga tak penah tahu apa erti itu ini dalam dirinya. Kau tak pernah nak cuba tapi kau sentiasa nak tahu. Kau tak penah nak tanya, tapi kau juga yg mahu.

Dan bila kini kau dihadap satu krisis identiti, Itu ini yg kau pupuk sekian lama, kau pudar kan satu satu. Tetapi kau diam, sambil duduk di meja study yg terhidang teh suam dan biskut meri di petang hening, kau berbisik sendiri

"So I guess this is what my life going to be. I would follow this flow and see what I find along the way."

Kah kah kah

Aku meroyan lagi. Selamat malam assalamualaikum.

P/s: stress
P/s: Kadang2 kau perasan, kadang aku yg perasan so its better to make it clear.

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It really happen

Assalamualaikum

Finally thanks God orthopaedic posting was over. How I wish I can finish it with happy ending. It didn't lulz. Short case was bloody terrible. I just need some piece of luck for my next theory paper on february so that I will pass this posting.

Now new posting, Primary care medicine. Please God help me this time going it thru very very well. Rindu nya happy ending mcm posting surgery last year. Yea, didn't mange to get A but i just happy Miss zetty statisfied with my long case.

"OK kamil, very good presentation"

Life move on. People surround us do change. How they change, to where they change supposedly not affect us. But sometime when the one we rely on change, I can't stand by my own feet alone. Well this thing happen to any person, anywhere, anytime. But I just can't believe it happen to me hahaha

I don't why but I think this is the time i could correlate best friend forever and jealousy

Hahaha am I look so girlish?

PS: Come on bro, u 'leave' me because of a girl. Rindu nye lepak mcm dulu. U know right , its single guy chatting :)

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Mimpi

Assalamualaikum

Kahkahkah

Aku mmg gila sket bila dah berminggu minggu dalam ortho ni. Semua segala otak biul aku ni dipaksa mencanak canak keluar idea. Stress sungguh.

Harapan je la nak skor A bagai ortho. Susah betul. Susah susah pun best. Tu yg aku tak serik serik tu lulz. Aku tak sure ak ni mmg senget bab ortho atau otak aku yg terkejut [banyak la kau terkejut] kena study pulun memulun balik lepas 5 bulan takyah struggle bukak buku. Yela masa Ruban dulu aku dok sibuk dgn visit, research n SPSS, pastu cuti sebulan pastu masuk PHPM sama gak 24jam ngadap SPSS siapkan data research. Ni baru terhegeh hegeh bukak buku balik. Macam siput

Cis aku tak cakap lagi kena bukak balik buku anatomy. Apply anatomy la kiranya. Kalau aku ada otak mcm Hamizul Afiq atau Judin Yaziz yg read once remember forever takpe gak. Haha sadis sungguh kisah aku.

Tengah2 aku stress terkial kial nak catch up balik anatomy n study ortho ni la satu2 benda nak hilang2. Note aku 2 kali hilang oke. Tu note ortho aku study sampai subuh tahu? [tipu je, sampai pukul 12 included rest tgk x factor kat youtube]. Mula2 hilang koleksi note fractures, dan hari ni hilang note sport medicine n infection in ortho. Bagus la sgt. Tips ortho aku kutip masa klinik Dr Faizal semua dlm tu .

Kah kah kah padan muka. Aku tak ckp lgi aku hilang buku PE ortho masa first week lagi. Noob

Dan skrg aku tgh busy nak pikir case write up yg xstart lagi n seminar presentation senin ni. Good good. Aku dah ready dah kena tibai lepas present nti dgn Dr Ferdhany.

Semalam jalan2 kuar, ada hamba Allah ni suka sgt psycho aku tgh posting ortho ni. Tau la enta tu hebat. Nak jadi pakar ortopedik dedikasi harapan ummah. Aku yg terkontang kanting ni xperlu nak ungkap balik ayat zaman hingusan aku dulu 

"Ortho ni nak score A"

Walawehhh, mimpi

Bye jumpa lagi. Alang alang dah baca ni, tolong tolong la doakan aku survive posting ni huhu

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