Saturday 7 November 2020

Assalamualaikum
Hello everyone ! I wish you are on your best health and condition

It is lovely saturday morning here in Damansara. I woke up early today, enjoying my coffee to catch the news on US election on my comfy bed. What a blessed !


So it has been 6 month until my last entry. Hehe hari tu cakap nak comeback tapi sendu juga. So this is it everyone, im here ! So as usual for the intro, just a lil bit an update of my current life. Im now working with my Alma Mater UiTM since June 2020. So dah masuk 5month now. So far so good. Good colleagues, nicer bosses, higher pay and it is in KL guyss.. Senang balik ipoh hehe

Except one thing.... i wish i can do something else other than medical. Yes everyone u heard it, im in medical department ! omg saya tak pandai la nk handle patient medical huhu. Since the first day of houseman, i hope I could avoid medical. Seram laa, sikit sikit patient collapse, sikit sikit nak CPR huhu. Kalau pandai mcm Hannan (bukan nama sebenar) takpe la..

Anyway I already sent my formal request to transfer to ENT, but until now still no reply. Hopefully i can get in soon.

So a lil bit about my current job. Im a internal medicine MO. In UiTM, we have almost all major speciality here. But for the rotation, is either general medicine and cardiology. For other speciality, the general medicine MO have to cover the cases. I did both and the conclusion i can give is : i dont like any of them, period !

And actually takde la minat mana pun ENT tu, it is just my escape plan LOL. My good friend, Fazreen ( bukan nama sebenar) already in ENT for few months, and he not really enjoy it. Takpe lah, as long as I can escape from medical department. 

Im actually kind of lost in my career. I really dont know what speciality i should further. I dont think im going to be a Pakar one day. I dont like to study, im comfortable with my current life. So i guess chronic MO pun okey. But to be in ENT until end of career without be a specialist is kind of weird for me. Afdhal (bukan nama sebenar) is taking NIOSH exam and it is tempting me lil bit. Should I take it too? 

Recently, I met someone. We were good and enjoyed our time together. But one day something happened and it changed everything. I was so depressed and devastated with the news. I became anxious and paranoid to almost everything. It is too complicated to tell here but basically it change my life. I was too far from my Creator for many years. And that episode made me really asked Him for help. Alhamdulillah, answered and im totally fine now. I found the peaceful back and i want to keep it. Im getting old and should think more about the Akhirat too. I hope Allah help me to be consistent in the pathway (to Heaven). I should do more good, spending more time for Him and leave the sin i made before. Help me God always. 

And I dont hate that person. In fact for me, that was a way God gave me a huge lesson. I should appreciate instead of hate them , right ?

Ok lah, Thats all for now. I just joined stock trading (Bursa) - racun dari Afdhal lah ni. Harap harap ad lebih rezeki di situ huhu. Ye lah, nanti nak kena pikir beli susu anak pula. 

Good bye ! and have a good time !

* hopefully Joe Biden menang. 
* geng geng ultra melayu ni takyah acah anti-trump sgt boleh x ? Trump is a white supremacist, basically like you!



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