Tuesday, 28 April 2015

Tough week.


Its been a long time ago since I experience the same thing now. 2-3 semesters back if I'm not mistaken. Being in this kind of situation is not easy. But sometimes I miss it. Wonder why.

It comes again. Same things. Too many unsolved problems, too little time with exam is coming soon.2 days ago I lost my bag ( actually syakir's Nike bag) at Citta mall. My wallet, nexus 7 ( I love this gadget so freaking much ), matrix card, few medical books are the things inside it. Stress level 50%.

Back to sg buloh, realised I lost my logbook too. While the submission date in 3days, im completely freak out. Impossible to fill it back within this short period. So my plan now just send the empty new logbook with official latter of excuse n police report inside as the proof. Bad decision but at least im not cheating. Well somebody suggest me to cheat lecturers' signature.

Thanks you so much Dr Nadia :)
Now im in so called study week. Not sure if it is true, but im trying to put myself in this mood. Have few bedside teachings left, but i think its better for me to just stay in room n do some last minute revison. (note: writing this during my rest hour hahahaha). Im completely forget what the hell i learned during anaesthesiology posting. Need to catch it back immediately. But u know what, all my anaesth n surgical notes also inside that freaking bagpack. Stress level 99%. Ahh whatever, leave me alone n let me deal this with sobr n solah.

And again, Being in this kind of situation is not easy. But sometimes I miss it. Wonder why.

I guess it is call from God

حَسْبُنَا اللهُ وَنِعْمَ الْوَكِيْلُ نِعْمَ الْمَوْلَى وَنِعْمَ النَّصِيْرُ
وَلَاحَوْلَ وَلَا قُوَّةَ إِلَّا بِاللهِ الْعَلِيِّ الْعَظِيْمِ

1)Please pray for me for this coming OSCE

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Tuesday, 7 April 2015

Itu ini

Semakin kau jejak usia, semakin kuat kau mengenal dunia. Semakin matang selusuri ragam hidup, untuk kau jelajah di dunia yang kau peluk.

Dan kau pula semakin hebat mencuba itu ini. Itu ini yang satu tika dulu kau anggap hanya pelengkap satu kitaran hidup atau memenuhi lumrah sang manusia. Dan kini itu ini  kau pula yang rasa.

Itu ini datangnya dari hati. Kau tak pasti tapi sentiasa selubungi. Terkadang kau abaikan, namun ianya hanya makin kuat. Terkadang kau kejarkan, namun ianya hanya makin sekat.

Kau tahu siapa diri kau. Kau tahu siapa diri nya. Kau tahu apa yang sama, kau tahu apa yang berbeza. Tapi kau tak penah tahu apa makna Itu ini dalam diri kau, dan kau juga tak penah tahu apa erti itu ini dalam dirinya. Kau tak pernah nak cuba tapi kau sentiasa nak tahu. Kau tak penah nak tanya, tapi kau juga yg mahu.

Dan bila kini kau dihadap satu krisis identiti, Itu ini yg kau pupuk sekian lama, kau pudar kan satu satu. Tetapi kau diam, sambil duduk di meja study yg terhidang teh suam dan biskut meri di petang hening, kau berbisik sendiri

"So I guess this is what my life going to be. I would follow this flow and see what I find along the way."

Kah kah kah

Aku meroyan lagi. Selamat malam assalamualaikum.

P/s: stress
P/s: Kadang2 kau perasan, kadang aku yg perasan so its better to make it clear.

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