Goodbye Am

Assalamualaikum

Selamat pagi semua, harap sihat2 belaka dlm lindungan Allah

Today is one of my saddest day in my life. Am pergi menghadap Ilahi semalam buat selama lamanya. Entah kenapa tp malam terakhir Am, Allah gerakkan hati aku utk call dy. Dan entah mengapa pula, Allah gerakkan hati nya utk jawab panggilan aku. Berbulan Am mengelak utk berbual di telefon. Malam itu lain cerita, syukur Alhamdulillah. Suara Am mmg lain, mmg dia sedang menderita. Ujian yg Allah beri dia mmg jadikan dia insan yg sangat kuat. Dia tetap sama sabar dan ceria, itulah Am yg aku kenal sejak dulu. Sedikit pun tak berubah

Thanks for memories Am

Thanks for notes that u gave me

Thanks for the advice

Thanks because you never left me no matter what happen

I will always remember you in prayers

I will always remember our smile, your voice, your everything

Our joy and our sadness

You will remain in my heart forever

Till we meet again in the other world

Wait me...

Selamat tinggal Am, sayang ku dunia akhirat

one of his note to me, dont worry Am, i will keep it all until my last breath

p/s : Benar kata orang, "Allah tarik nyawa orang baik2 dahulu agar yg hidup dpt ambil iktibar"
p/s : People may question me what kind of relationship is this. Dont u think it weird ? I dont have an exact answer, but believe me you will find that until u found someone who u call soulmate. It is very pure.

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smile

"I know this is random, but u have a really nice smile"

Yeah that is the word. Back to months ago in mid 2015, these sentence changed my perception in a few things. We talked, got to know each other, be friend .

we talked, we smiled, we laugh.
we shared, we cried, we care
You teased me, I teased you.
You like me, I like you

and now after all that we have been thru, it seem like we r not meant together. We were trying so hard but sometimes we just need to be honest to the situation. For any reason that is uncertain, this is the best for now. Lets not talk to each other.You be you and I be me .

If u think it is easy to me, the answer is hell no. I always be the same. Same guy with half minded, who addicted to you n could not forgive your first smile. 

In the end of the day, the only thing i want remember is your smile. Because one day i will learn to live without you and move on.

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10th day

Assalamualaikum

Well it's already 10 days. Since the day I knew you were there, living your life. Things seems get better for you, I'm so happy. But for me not much different, I remain the same guy who is loving you hopelessly.

It's actually already 6months since our last conversation. Somebody got hurt. We decided to what we are now. Apart.

Please, reply me. I'm leaving soon. At least for the last goodbye

P/s: pray for my professional exam. 12days to go

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