Saturday 9 January 2021

Covid 19 and im on quarantine

Assalamualaikum everyone !

May each of us blessed with the best of health by the grace of Allah.
May we get the peacefulness living in His Dunya
May He guide us the right path to the highest Paradise

Hello all ! How are you doing ? Dah masuk bulan ke 7 im working in UiTM. Still in same department - internal medicine. So im currently in CCU (its like ICU for cardiology patients) rotation. Ok lah, not so busy sebab bed total ad 6 saje hehe. But for oncall, i need to do cardio + general medical. Anyway, still no progress pasal tukar department. In my previous entry, i did mention pasal nak transfer to ENT. But i changed my mind, im requesting for ED pula. Haha pusing2 last pergi ED jugak. No idea bila dapat tukar because apparently UiTM dont hire new doctor for many months already. So until new doctors masuk, i will stay in medical * sigh *

For long term, im still in doubt about my future in UiTM. Thinking to resign from government sector but I still have 6years bond (10years for JPA scholar). Actually my request for basic salary revision in UiTM was rejected. Apparently UiTM do not recognize UIA as goverment sector (walaupun UIA ni IPTA). So when i accepted UiTM, they assumed me from private sector thus my starting salary would be tangga paling bawah UD43. Huhu rasa mcm setahun tak dpt kenaikan. Sedih nyeee. And I hope this will not affect the 3years period for kenaikan pangkat UD48. Kalau tidak, mcm rugi je working 2years for goverment. I can make double pay if 1 quit from beginning kalau tau mcm ni :(

I dont know why, but I think this is the transition in my life. What are the things I put for priority. Selalu pikir kan masa tua, pikir kan my income and where to spend my money. Aint nobody got time for partner and relationship haha.  As long as my mom is healthy, my family are doing fine, I think i will be okey. I start to do investment, do trading on bursa saham, looking for opportunity in bussiness etc. Do you guys have the same feeling as me ? I mean this transition, the way you put your priority ?

Im currently on home quarantine. My good friend at hospital just diagnosed with covid19. Luckily he only has very mild symptom. Insyallah will recover really soon. Tp  tulah, hari tu we went to lunch naik his car. So it was about 1 hour exposure with on off pakai mask haha. I did my swab test on day3 and Alhamdulillah it was negative. So far i have no symptom. Just need to complete 10days of quarantine. Boring juga duk rumah ni, nothing much can do. And what make it worst, it consume my quota for cuti this month. Terpaksa cancel all my plan for cuti cuti malaysia. Takpe lah, must be a blessing in disguise.

Ok lah, that all. Im enjoying the nice saturday morning in Damansara. At this age, pagi pagi minggu mcm ni, some of my friends are managing their babies, or making breakfast for the families etc etc. But me staying alone , having coffe and do some writing on my blog. No im not lonely, just saying few variation of life cycle in this world. Take care everyone !



p/s : latest photo of me. Kot la ade berkenan ahahahah. Kbye

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Saturday 7 November 2020

Assalamualaikum
Hello everyone ! I wish you are on your best health and condition

It is lovely saturday morning here in Damansara. I woke up early today, enjoying my coffee to catch the news on US election on my comfy bed. What a blessed !


So it has been 6 month until my last entry. Hehe hari tu cakap nak comeback tapi sendu juga. So this is it everyone, im here ! So as usual for the intro, just a lil bit an update of my current life. Im now working with my Alma Mater UiTM since June 2020. So dah masuk 5month now. So far so good. Good colleagues, nicer bosses, higher pay and it is in KL guyss.. Senang balik ipoh hehe

Except one thing.... i wish i can do something else other than medical. Yes everyone u heard it, im in medical department ! omg saya tak pandai la nk handle patient medical huhu. Since the first day of houseman, i hope I could avoid medical. Seram laa, sikit sikit patient collapse, sikit sikit nak CPR huhu. Kalau pandai mcm Hannan (bukan nama sebenar) takpe la..

Anyway I already sent my formal request to transfer to ENT, but until now still no reply. Hopefully i can get in soon.

So a lil bit about my current job. Im a internal medicine MO. In UiTM, we have almost all major speciality here. But for the rotation, is either general medicine and cardiology. For other speciality, the general medicine MO have to cover the cases. I did both and the conclusion i can give is : i dont like any of them, period !

And actually takde la minat mana pun ENT tu, it is just my escape plan LOL. My good friend, Fazreen ( bukan nama sebenar) already in ENT for few months, and he not really enjoy it. Takpe lah, as long as I can escape from medical department. 

Im actually kind of lost in my career. I really dont know what speciality i should further. I dont think im going to be a Pakar one day. I dont like to study, im comfortable with my current life. So i guess chronic MO pun okey. But to be in ENT until end of career without be a specialist is kind of weird for me. Afdhal (bukan nama sebenar) is taking NIOSH exam and it is tempting me lil bit. Should I take it too? 

Recently, I met someone. We were good and enjoyed our time together. But one day something happened and it changed everything. I was so depressed and devastated with the news. I became anxious and paranoid to almost everything. It is too complicated to tell here but basically it change my life. I was too far from my Creator for many years. And that episode made me really asked Him for help. Alhamdulillah, answered and im totally fine now. I found the peaceful back and i want to keep it. Im getting old and should think more about the Akhirat too. I hope Allah help me to be consistent in the pathway (to Heaven). I should do more good, spending more time for Him and leave the sin i made before. Help me God always. 

And I dont hate that person. In fact for me, that was a way God gave me a huge lesson. I should appreciate instead of hate them , right ?

Ok lah, Thats all for now. I just joined stock trading (Bursa) - racun dari Afdhal lah ni. Harap harap ad lebih rezeki di situ huhu. Ye lah, nanti nak kena pikir beli susu anak pula. 

Good bye ! and have a good time !

* hopefully Joe Biden menang. 
* geng geng ultra melayu ni takyah acah anti-trump sgt boleh x ? Trump is a white supremacist, basically like you!



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Sunday 26 April 2020

Ramadhan karem !

Assalamulaikum and hello peeps !

Hey im coming back here. So we are in the month of barakah and forgiving now. Alhamdullillah diizinkan Allah utk bertemu lagi Ramadhan. But a lil bit sad for this year because of covid19 pandemic. We no longer be able to taraweh at masjid and iftar with family. I stranded in Kuantan for 3month already. huhu botak kepala aku

Day 3 of fasting and so far so great !

Oh i have decided regarding my UiTM job offer. yeah Im going to UiTM starting next month insyallah. Semoga ini keputusan yg terbaik. Somehow i feel like im in transition period to have a new life. Thinking back from the day i finished high school, actually there are few things that dont achieve yet. I was too focused on my studies and job for the past few years. Im getting old and will hit 30 in 2years. Time is running . Go Kamil go, achieve as much as you can !

Ok lah, thats all for now.
Selamat berpuasa everyone !
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Monday 6 April 2020

Dilemma

Hi everyone

So few days ago I got an email from UiTM regarding my job application. Alhamdulillah I got the offer but you know what, they want me to report duty on next month? They rejected my appeal to postpone until July 2020.

I really can't 😥

I'm working in ED now and we kind of staff shortage. How can I leave my team at this moment? This covid19 pandemic not seem to settle in a month.

I need to think carefully. It's like take or leave it situation. If I'm letting go this offer, how sure i can get another offer in the future. My mom really want me to work nearer to my hometown. 

I need to discuss with my boss. Hopefully I'm strong enough to tell him that ...

I'm leaving boss 
I'm sorry

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