Saturday 7 November 2020

Assalamualaikum
Hello everyone ! I wish you are on your best health and condition

It is lovely saturday morning here in Damansara. I woke up early today, enjoying my coffee to catch the news on US election on my comfy bed. What a blessed !


So it has been 6 month until my last entry. Hehe hari tu cakap nak comeback tapi sendu juga. So this is it everyone, im here ! So as usual for the intro, just a lil bit an update of my current life. Im now working with my Alma Mater UiTM since June 2020. So dah masuk 5month now. So far so good. Good colleagues, nicer bosses, higher pay and it is in KL guyss.. Senang balik ipoh hehe

Except one thing.... i wish i can do something else other than medical. Yes everyone u heard it, im in medical department ! omg saya tak pandai la nk handle patient medical huhu. Since the first day of houseman, i hope I could avoid medical. Seram laa, sikit sikit patient collapse, sikit sikit nak CPR huhu. Kalau pandai mcm Hannan (bukan nama sebenar) takpe la..

Anyway I already sent my formal request to transfer to ENT, but until now still no reply. Hopefully i can get in soon.

So a lil bit about my current job. Im a internal medicine MO. In UiTM, we have almost all major speciality here. But for the rotation, is either general medicine and cardiology. For other speciality, the general medicine MO have to cover the cases. I did both and the conclusion i can give is : i dont like any of them, period !

And actually takde la minat mana pun ENT tu, it is just my escape plan LOL. My good friend, Fazreen ( bukan nama sebenar) already in ENT for few months, and he not really enjoy it. Takpe lah, as long as I can escape from medical department. 

Im actually kind of lost in my career. I really dont know what speciality i should further. I dont think im going to be a Pakar one day. I dont like to study, im comfortable with my current life. So i guess chronic MO pun okey. But to be in ENT until end of career without be a specialist is kind of weird for me. Afdhal (bukan nama sebenar) is taking NIOSH exam and it is tempting me lil bit. Should I take it too? 

Recently, I met someone. We were good and enjoyed our time together. But one day something happened and it changed everything. I was so depressed and devastated with the news. I became anxious and paranoid to almost everything. It is too complicated to tell here but basically it change my life. I was too far from my Creator for many years. And that episode made me really asked Him for help. Alhamdulillah, answered and im totally fine now. I found the peaceful back and i want to keep it. Im getting old and should think more about the Akhirat too. I hope Allah help me to be consistent in the pathway (to Heaven). I should do more good, spending more time for Him and leave the sin i made before. Help me God always. 

And I dont hate that person. In fact for me, that was a way God gave me a huge lesson. I should appreciate instead of hate them , right ?

Ok lah, Thats all for now. I just joined stock trading (Bursa) - racun dari Afdhal lah ni. Harap harap ad lebih rezeki di situ huhu. Ye lah, nanti nak kena pikir beli susu anak pula. 

Good bye ! and have a good time !

* hopefully Joe Biden menang. 
* geng geng ultra melayu ni takyah acah anti-trump sgt boleh x ? Trump is a white supremacist, basically like you!



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Sunday 26 April 2020

Ramadhan karem !

Assalamulaikum and hello peeps !

Hey im coming back here. So we are in the month of barakah and forgiving now. Alhamdullillah diizinkan Allah utk bertemu lagi Ramadhan. But a lil bit sad for this year because of covid19 pandemic. We no longer be able to taraweh at masjid and iftar with family. I stranded in Kuantan for 3month already. huhu botak kepala aku

Day 3 of fasting and so far so great !

Oh i have decided regarding my UiTM job offer. yeah Im going to UiTM starting next month insyallah. Semoga ini keputusan yg terbaik. Somehow i feel like im in transition period to have a new life. Thinking back from the day i finished high school, actually there are few things that dont achieve yet. I was too focused on my studies and job for the past few years. Im getting old and will hit 30 in 2years. Time is running . Go Kamil go, achieve as much as you can !

Ok lah, thats all for now.
Selamat berpuasa everyone !
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Monday 6 April 2020

Dilemma

Hi everyone

So few days ago I got an email from UiTM regarding my job application. Alhamdulillah I got the offer but you know what, they want me to report duty on next month? They rejected my appeal to postpone until July 2020.

I really can't 😥

I'm working in ED now and we kind of staff shortage. How can I leave my team at this moment? This covid19 pandemic not seem to settle in a month.

I need to think carefully. It's like take or leave it situation. If I'm letting go this offer, how sure i can get another offer in the future. My mom really want me to work nearer to my hometown. 

I need to discuss with my boss. Hopefully I'm strong enough to tell him that ...

I'm leaving boss 
I'm sorry

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Friday 3 April 2020

Life is great

Asslamualaikum and Hello everyone !

Well this is my first posting for 2020. I shoud congratulate to myself for being consistent writing on this blog. Walaupun tak se aktif dulu, but yeah I'm still here hehe. It was since 2011 when I started blogging. 9years hell yeah !

For your info, Im currently in working in Kuantan as emergency resident at IIUM medical centre. I love my job and I have a great team here. My boss is an amazing guy 👌

We are now having an covid19 outbreak nation wide . It's so devastating to see what Malaysian have to go through. But I'm always proud of our own Malaysian medical team. May Allah help us along the way. We can win this fight !. Tapi to be honest, penat juga musim covid19, easily annoyed, rasa mcm burnout je. Long working day is still fine for me. But as a avid traveller (yeke ? Hihi), sebulan tak keluar kuantan rasa mcm nak omg I can't mommy! Semoga cepat reda and can go travel lagi 

* For my team, stay strong okey? We can do this !
* Kudos to polices, armies, food delivers and everyone on this battle too

So many things happened to me for the past few years. Every ups and downs are countless blessing. Im enjoying my life. Everyday is a lesson to myself. Finding a better me. Life is great, Alhamdulillah 😇😌

Every failed relationship is not a failure.
It's just a lesson for you.
People come and go.

Im seeing life in a bigger picture now. We are not competing with everyone else. They are on their own pace and me on my own. My schoolmate dh kahwin? My uni-mate getting into master program? Etc etc. Let them be and I should be proud of them. I have my own battle. And for me, what is more important is how do I appreciate life and be happy always. 

Dont be afraid to change
Don't hesitate to move
If you think it is for the better you

Ok people's, itu sahaja for this time. I should write more in the future. Buat kenang kenagan di masa tua 😌

Till we meet again. Bye !















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